I wish I could smoke, then I may have the chance to be relieved. People suck the cigarettes, and expire the white, magical fog over and over again. What are they thinking during the whole process? Maybe nothing, I guess. I never know how it feels like. I only want a moment, to be with myself, stop for a while, no longer trying to figure out what have happened.

Something passed is just passed.

like a dream (or nightmare?)

It is really a good thing, maybe the best in my life, to have friends like you guys. Thank you for being with me, bringing the food, passing the tissues, and hugging me. And for the ones who are not here, I still feel so grateful.

Will I be totally fine someday? I mean, to laugh from the inside. Would I trust someone with my whole soul? Oh God, I want you girls back and have wine together. I wanna be drunk just for once, which I've never been.

Time will smooth everything, I know......

Happy Birthday

It seems that I am too old to feel happy for my birthday.
以前只要到了五月底，就會大肆宣布雙子季到了，因為中山資管的93、94級大概共有15個左右的雙子人，總把BBS板上搞地沸揚，年紀再大一點，到台北念研究所，也會期待要穿小洋裝跟喵團一起慶生、然後幻想會收到什麼禮物；工作的第一年還以陳員外之姿玩了三天，真累。

從去年開始，可能是因為蠟燭已經破25了(怒)，我已經不抱盼望，六月到了也不覺得特別。
但如果真的全世界的人都忘記，我一定又會很生氣，雙子座大概就是如此地難搞。
不過呢，只要可以跟朋友們還有某文吃個飯，心滿意足矣。

一個人的時候，我常會想，朋友們不在身邊的這一兩年我都在幹嘛？日子一天天溜走，分秒毫不眷戀，懷念以前下班後還有體力去吃火鍋、逛街或看電影，現在只能癱在沙發上，變為名符其實的coach potato。幸好最近逐漸恢復運動，也稍有活力了，望能持之以恆，抓住青春小鳥吧!!!

又離題了，跳TONE跳得厲害的雙子小孩。
Happy Birthday to myself. Yes, I turn into 27.